Being alone never feels right. Sometimes it feels good, but it never feels right. And yet, looking back on the life I have lived, alone for most of the time, it now seems to have felt better; it seems as if I have lived my life more deliberately.
It's like travelling solo, which gives you the freedom to go where you want to go and when you want to go. It also makes you meet other people which makes you learn more about them as well as yourself.
Being alone, you don't get asked at nine o'clock in the morning what you want to have for lunch. You don't even know if you're going to be hungry. You simply go to the fridge when you are hungry and see what's there. If you are like me and have nothing more in the fridge than a chunk of cheese and some beer, you go down the street or to the club and see what's there. Each day is a blank page for you to write your own story.
The company you keep are also single men because somehow you don't quite fit in the company of married men whose wives think that you might give their husbands the wrong idea and regard you a threat.
Your friends have either always been single or become single again, in which case they are ahead of you because they have already accepted loneliness as the price to pay for not getting asked at nine o'clock in the morning what they want to have for lunch.
I had better stop writing this post because it's nine o'clock in the morning and I've just got asked what I want to have for lunch.









